Nothing

Okay, last week I was 885 calories under budget. I worked out 5 days, burning over 5000 calories. What do I have to show for it? Nada, zip. No gain, no loss. I know I have to be patient, but aaauugggh. It is really throwing my focus off this week. I'm not giving up though. I will keep trying!

Reality

So, for all my valiant efforts at the beginning of the week, it all came crumbling down by Thursday. The good thing is I am back and ready to try again. The bad thing is that I am actually up 1 pound. WTH? Anyway, I had 4 days of exercise last week. That is more than I have been getting and I feel good about that. I burned 4400 calories in exercise. The irony is that I consumed about 3000 calories in alcohol...pretty obvious what needs to change in this equation. It looks like I could have been looking at a 1-2 lb loss if I had just made better decisions.

This week's goal is 5 workouts and alcohol calories limited to 1000 or less. Should be do-able.

quickie

Bad choices last night...still should be good for the week if I can keep it under control. I'm trying!

Night rides

Last night I went for a night ride with a couple of friends. I have a love/don't like relationship with night riding. I love that I get to get out midweek and put in a 20-23 mile ride in the dirt. I love that I get to catch up with my friends. I love that I get to torch a bunch of calories! But I don't like that I can't see - I'm actually lucky I can see during the day - the addition of dark, dust and fog is not great for me. I don't like the cold in the winter and I guess I don't like that there is only one trail I feel comfortable night riding on so we end up doing it over and over... so far the pros outweigh the cons and I'll keep going. It's not a perfect riding scenario, but it'll do.

yesterday's numbers
budget 1374
ate 1800
exercise 1194
net 606

Could've maybe eaten a bit more, but I'm doing okay.

New Year!

So apparently the theme of my blogging is either "I'm gonna be committed and lose weight!" or "I suck and totally fell of the wagon, I'm bloated blah blah blah". So I think just to mix things up I will do a combo blog. Yes, I have made some terrible decisions. I have my girth to show for it. It is not a mystery how this happened. Cheese, cookies, wine, kahlua, crackers oh yeah, it's all there. I have turned 40 and all I can do now is keeping pushing for change. I am working on it. I am tracking calories and moving. I have a personal trainer that I will meet with once a week and then do my assigned homework. I am training for Boggs 8 hour and there is no way I want to carry this extra weight around. I wouldn't want to race with a bowling ball in my pack... So here we go - let the games begin.

1/4 recap
daily calorie budget 1371
Food calories consumed 1360
exercise 394
Net 966

Should probably eat a bit more if I am going to exercise like that.

Frustrated

Well, for all my big talk and renewed commitment. I sit here back at the weight I was 4 weeks ago. Frauk!

Every month during "that" time my boobs swell up, I get the bloat and generally feel like a cow. Well this cow like feeling is even worse as I sit at my highest weight ever for the 3rd month in a row. What the hell is wrong with me? Where is my resolve? Where is my commitment? If frustration were a weight loss plan I would be at goal by now.

Total bust

+1.5

Well that was a total bust. I clearly cannot manage 4 days of weekend eating. Again, I probably have some post holiday bloat going on + we ate out all 3 meals yesterday. Yikes! My guess is I'll drop this 1.5 in a few days, but dammit! Why are the weekends so challenging? I did run on Thursday and Friday, but then I either have another cold or I have relapsed - either way I feel like crap again. That is typically good for dieting though...we'll see.

Planning a mountain bike ride tonight. Gonna bundle up good!