Obsessing

It' funny, when I do WW I feel consumed by it. I do not want to be obsessed with food - either good or bad. What is a "normal" relationship with food? When I don't do WW I tend to be obsessed with food in a different way. I try to silence the voices in my head that are singing "that's 12 points, that's 15 points, that's - wow! are you really eating that?" as if by somehow not acknowledging what is in the food I will be able to avoid the conseqences of it. Denial is a powerful tool. Rather than be torn between what I know about the nutritional information about a certain food and whether I want to eat I simply flip the switch and turn the WW voice off. Also, and almost as important in keeping my denial game going, I certainly do not go bragging to my friends that I ate something totally crappy. Oh I won't lie if I am asked about it, but I am certainly not going to bring it up!

When I do WW I feel like I am constantly planning, shopping, counting, logging, eating or looking forward to eating. I usually start my first week ninja style - I have a list of things I am not allowed and a list of things that I must do (activitiy points, GHG's etc) This time I am trying not to do that. I am trying to just be more balanced. I am trying to not obsess. I am learning to let food be a part of my day and not to dictate my day. I am allowing mistakes to just be mistakes and to continue forward. I am trying something different this time. I am trying to just be normal about food. No obsessing either good or bad.